Tomorrow I am starting a diet and exercise regimen and I can not be less excited. I am feeling quite a bit of resistance to this new endeavor and I am not sure why. Perhaps it is because I have both fear and an extensive history of failure, especially of late. Perhaps I simply don’t want to change my life and body for the better. Maybe I am overwhelmed by the idea of meal plans and grocery shopping…and cooking, oh my! Maybe I fear success. What will I do with a brand new body and how will that effect my identity? It could be a combination of all of the above.
What causes these hurdles? Could it be the self-defeating, hopeless state of being created by depression? Maybe it’s the “Feeler” in me who is very self-conscious and dreads looking silly while dieting and exercising. I simply don’t know.
What I do know:
I will go home after my shift and take my measurements and “before pics”;
on Monday, I will start my day with a shakeology drink, a workout, and a smile;
I will finally figure out my meal plan, even if it is one day at time;
I will stick to this 21-day plan.
Have you ever dreaded something that was supposed to better your life? How did you overcome your negative feelings? Feel free to share your story.
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